i had a dream

a very scary vivid sunday night dream the seemed to last for hours and hours!!!
i had to get to school, my phone credit was gone, and it just wasn’t happening.
people would offer to help me and then like stroll to the bus with me -
it was the worst seoul nightmare ever and i never ever made it to class.
i had such a time this weekend, i just DID NOT want it to end.
needless to say, my date went reeeeeally well, and this boy is a unicorn among boys. he’s gentlemanly AND good-hearted, a good talker AND a good listener – both surprisingly rare combinations in my experience. we’re climbin a mountain together next weekend ^-^ RIGHT NOW, my korean life is a good one – my job is good, my friendships are good, my health is good, my apartment is good, my mind is good, and my love life’s good. everything is good! things were pretty bad for me for awhile around march and april-ish after i lost my job, hated my new town and new apartment, felt like i had no friends, got dumped, and stopped exercisin, so here’s to things workin out for the best!

i don’t even remember mine :/

but this is so good!!!

do you remember yours?

surprises

none of the videos of my favorite hits show anyone playing a musical instrument.
please refer to this mash-up of about 20 current top songs.

last weekend my plans somehow morphed from a peaceful day reading at lake park (near my old home) with michelle, to a quiet dinner in insadong (the traditional/arts/temple neighborhood) with two coworkers which actually never even materialized, to rooftop beer drinking in itaewon (foreigner/military area) with 10 emily-friends, to partying it up in that neighborhood. and honestly, that was LAST on my list of things to do – i haaaaate itaewon at night. just a bunch of dumb military guys, offensive misogynists in polo shirts looking for one-night stands, and screechy girls. but GUESS WHAT. i had fun, i met a guy i like (at the rooftop, not the clubbbb), and we have a date next week. i’d been kind of laying low and avoiding datey type things, but now, i think i’m ready to rock! since i haven’t been on a first date since …september(!) with m-k, wish me luck!

me me me me me

so things have been revolvin and spinnin and metamorphisizin on the work and the friendship fronts lately, but i’m not in a so this happened and then this happened and then this happened storytelling mood. i just want to talk about myself. because really, isn’t that the point of the overly self-indulgent personal blog anyway???

so remember how i grew out my hair so it would be its natural color for the first time since i was 13? and i was so proud of myself and kept saying “NEVER SAY DYE!!” all the time and thinking i was really funny and above it all, above all those petty vanities and social constructs of artificial beauty etc.? that i would NEVER EVER BEND TO SOCIAL BEAUTY NORMS AGAIN (with hair color).

well, i dyed it last weekend! i’m blonde and it’s a great color. an embarrassingly expensive korean salon color. boys on the street now tell me i’m beautiful. which is nice but also sad that no one noticed me when i was REAL. c’est la vie – i feel more comfortable with the blonde i’ve donned for most of my life, including my childhood. is that so wrong??? yes. ah, i am so ashamed. to cling to my old diy low-maintenance values in the face of my own hypocrisy, i gave myself a really weird haircut. i actually quite like it, and i could post a picture, but i will just say it’s pretty reminiscent of this:

oh, yeahhhhh. you can’t wait to see my hair craftsmanship!!

plus, i’ve gone running 15 times in the past month, go me! i feel pretty in control and on top of things in the small world of just me right now and i like it.